It’s Tuesday.
So?
What again?
What’s so special about Tuesday?
I don’t know anything.
Hehehe just kidding. Please don’t kill me I still want to live.
So it’s December 11, 2018. Today is our first eleven! Time flies so fast. It feels like it was just yesterday when I bullied you without any special feelings included.
Let’s look back a bit?
We met via autobase right? I was bored so I sent something to the autobase, asking if anyone was up. Was it at midnight? I think yes. And there was you. I still remember your reply, it was “I’m here!”
So yeah we started talking. We discussed about how we wanted to die :( Why so silly. And our discussion changed into counting and we started a drama. You were the one who started the drama okay, because suddenly you were maths and you proposed me tf. And then we started using capslocks and bullying each other.
Out of nowhere, you suddenly flirted me. I was like- what the hell is wrong with this girl is she drunk or something. So I rejected you a lot HAHAHAHA because it was fun rejecting you????? But then I started to flirt back anyway🌚
I remember you said that you were going to take hiatus. I don’t know why but I felt like I didn’t want you to take hiatus, I thought it would be empty without your presence. You told me to find you on kkt while you were on hiatus and I said that I didn’t have any kkt, and gUESS WHAT I INSTALLED KKT RIGHT AWAY!🌚 Idk, maybe that time I already felt comfortable with you???
One day, I was talking, flirting and such with one girl, you know who🌚 We cuddled and did skinships a lot, we even kissed, we did things like she was my girlfriend. I was NSA right? So I thought it was okay doing those things to her, because it seemed like she was okay too. Turned out she liked me and she was being all gloomy in my DM, saying sorry and blabla. Of course I was shocked la, I didn’t know what to do, I need advices from a girl too so I sent you a DM and told you everything. I ended things with that girl, she blocked me so- ya, everything ended :-) Everything was okay until you kissed me. I asked you to kiss me but it was honestly just a joke bUT YOU REALLY KISSED ME ON THE CHEEK BEFORE SAYING GOODNIGHT SJDJDJDHSHHS. I WAS LIKE, WHAT’S WRONG WITH MY HEART CALM TF DOWN WHY ARE YOU BEING LIKE DIS. I mean, I felt nothing when other girls kissed me bUT MY HEART WANTED TO EXPLODE SO BAD WHEN YOU DID SJDJSJSHFKGK YOU’RE CRAZY. And then, you became so cute like wtf why you did that to my poor heart. So ya, I fell for you. I wanted to keep it by myself tbh because I was NSA. I asked for advices from a friend, she told me to confess, she cursed at me for being so dumb :( So I finally confessed. I was ready to be rejected but who knew you actually liked me back. Hehehe. So here we are now.
Happy 1st Monthsarry,
Baby! ♡
Thankyou for being patient, thankyou for letting me to bully you, thankyou for loving this mess, thankyou for caring about me, thankyou for everything you’ve done for me, for our relationship.
I know I’m not a good boyfriend for you. “Why would I throw a diamond away while picking up stones?” You said. But you don’t know I’m just another stone even when you said I’m a diamond in your eyes. I’ll try to be a better boyfriend, a better bestfriend, also a better brother for you.
I’m sorry I always feel insecure, I’m sorry if I ever made you sad, I’m sorry I don’t express my love well, I’m sorry I’m not good enough for you. But I’m a selfish guy who wants to have you who’s nearly perfect, or maybe- perfect, just perfect. So please stay with me even if it’s hard, don’t leave me. I’ll be better for you, I’ll make you feel loved, I’ll help you to overcome your trauma, I’ll make you feel more comfortable with me, I’ll be here when you need me.
Let’s face our problems together, let’s face the ups and downs together, and let’s last for a really long time. I love you. I love you a looooot. I love you soooo much.
Let’s meet again next month, baby girl. ♡
With love,
@tytacrk
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